This is not about u anymore.

I'm not going to cry a river if that is what u expect. I will ignore the fact that u are so important in my life. I can. I can do anything i want to. I won't feel guilty anymore. I deserve so much more ;)

U are in this thin line between importance and indifference. And now i feel free, u wont take that away from me. I will leave my worries aside. And tonight i'm proud to say that i'm worth it. Cause all this love and all that tears doesnt mean a thing. I'm able to move along without you. Out there i have the whole world to discover, to found something better. And i'm not going to reject more opportunities.

I miss you like hell.

I miss you. Without you, my life is just empty. I miss how we used to be, all those nights and all those days thinking about you. I still think about you. But now my face turns sad. Maybe i'm wrong with my decision, but don't lie to me and say that all is okay. Is not okay. Living my life without kissing that lips is not okay. So, try to understand me. Try to understand that my life is pretty complicated, and when i'm in love i like to give all of me. And i can't. That's frustrating.

I miss the way u looked at me and suddenly told me "damn, you are beautiful". I miss looking at that sweet face. I can't live without you. I love you too much, i can't deny this. Even when i'm trying this hard to forget you, i realize that i can't. I love you with all my strength. And maybe i'm a little afraid cause u are so fucking perfect to me. And that makes me think you are going to hurt me.

Don't ever change. And please, love me. Forever. Cause i'm able to do anything for you. I will fight for you, i will make you smile everytime you need it and i will hold you tight... so u won't fall. You just have to say the right words and then i will be yours. All yours. And i will do whatever i have to do, to make you happy. I will live just for you.

But it's hard to accept that i was mistaken. And yes, i was mistaken. Could you forgive me?

I was here first.

Yes, i'm thinking of him and all of the things we could have done. About how happy i am when he just smile or when he just bite his lips. But... No, i won't tell him anymore.